Life’s Update

July 26, 2011 at 12:50 am (Baby Ducky, diabetes, life) (, , , )

I got to “meet” Ducky today.  We had our first ultrasound and got to see Ducky’s heartbeat.  The ultrasound nurse said that she only saw one baby but because we were measuring early we might find another (slim chances).  As you may not know, Hubs and I are both twins so this is something we’ve discussed.  She did find a cyst on one ovary, but the dr. she consulted with didn’t seem especially concerned, so we will watch it and hope it just disappears by itself.

Ducky is measuring smaller than expected, by a week and a half.  The ultrasound can be within a week (plus or minus) so we shouldn’t be concerned (according to the tech) but we are a little because we’ve used Natural Family Planning and so we know exactly which day I got pregnant, exactly when I ovulated.  We will have another ultrasound either at 19 weeks (which seems so far away!) or possibly in between since I am considered high risk.  I really hope that it is sooner so that we can get an eye on the cyst and hopefully move our due date back to when it should be (in my humble opinion).

I am so emotional lately.  I’m tired a lot and am really frustrated by not having my blood sugar under control.  I’m either meeting with the Diabetes Specialist in person or over the phone twice a week and each visit has us upping the dosage of insulin.  This is really hard for me because I am starting to feel like this is hopeless.  I know that I am making the best food choices and being smart, but it feels like it isn’t working.  Adding the smaller baby, cyst, tiredness, frustration over not being able to eat what I want, and pregnancy emotions, it’s making me weepy and emotional.  I guess this too shall pass.


Permalink Leave a Comment

Struggling. Already. ugh.

July 18, 2011 at 10:01 pm (Baby Ducky, diabetes)

Hey Y’all.  I have got to be honest. I am struggling right now.  I am not typing this to garner sympathy, but I want to put this out there in case anybody else has similar issues.  I am currently 6 1/2 weeks pregnant and have diabetes.  My last post dealt with some of my concerns about that, but it’s getting harder.

I went to the diabetes specialist today.  This was not our first meeting. It was my third meeting with her and we have had two phone meetings.  Let’s do the math: that’s 5 meetings in the 2 weeks that we have known that we are pregnant.  That’s a lot.  We have another meeting set up for Thursday.  This is really hard for me.  I haven’t even been to a prenatal appointment, they have all been about my diabetes and Ducky.

So what’s been the outcome of these meetings?  Well, first I got a very strict eating plan of 3 meals and 3 snacks, all at specific intervals, and the instructions to check my sugar levels 4 times a day. Then I got a prescription for a pill in the a.m. and 12u of insulin at night.  Then that was changed to two pills in the a.m. and 16u at night.  Now we are looking at 2 pills in the a.m. and a shot with 2 types of insulin in the a.m., a small shot of insulin before dinner, and 20 u of insulin at night with the possibility of a pill at night too.  Before pregnancy I was able to control diabetes with just diet and exercise.  Not anymore. I feel like I am constantly eating or waiting to eat.  On Thursday of this week I get to go to another meeting and depending on how my numbers look, we will adjust again.  And what is really interesting is that even if I do get my numbers stabilized, I will have weekly phone meetings so that we can adjust the insulins as needed.  This is really hard.  All of a sudden there is a list a mile long of things I cannot eat, and specific times for when I am allowed to eat other things.

I love Ducky already. More than anything!  But I have to say that this is really hard.  Hubs has been so supportive, encouraging me in every possible way.  I haven’t had much morning sickness (but was warned that could change in 2-3 weeks) but am tired alot.

One thing that is interesting is that I have not gained any weight yet.  Speaking with the Diabetes specialist, she said that with being more active and with my eating plan, I might not gain any weight while pregnant.  That seems so absolutely counter-intuitive, but she told me that as long as my sugar numbers are in the proper ranges, I am healthy, and baby is healthy, I really may not gain weight.  It has to do with how active I am now plus the food.  I don’t think that I would not gain weight, but it was interesting to think about.  As somebody who is overweight, I know that I need to gain less, but I didn’t realize that there was the potential to gain nothing.  Interesting.

Also, we have bought a baby blanket.  Other than the presents we bought for the grandparents, we haven’t purchased anything for Ducky.  We still don’t know if we will want to know the gender when the time comes, and even then, that time isn’t for a while.  Because we aren’t far along, we aren’t buying stuff yet, but we did get to buy a blanket and were gifted with several other lovely blankets.  Yay for little things that offer some encouragement.

Permalink Leave a Comment

Ch-ch-changes (or however that old song went)

July 11, 2011 at 5:59 pm (diabetes, life)

Hi webs.  I took a short break because we were moving and didn’t have internet.  I’ve missed the internet quite a bit and have been using my phone but it is really not the same. We should have regular internet later this week (thank God, and I don’t say that lightly).  So we moved on Saturday, July 2nd and tried to settle in on the 3rd, but somethung really big happened on the 4th.  We found out that…..
we are going to be parents sometime around March 13th! Our first monthe trying for a family worked! We told parents on the 9th and everybody else since then. 🙂
Now for the scary part: I make no secret of the fact that I am diabetic.  It doesn’t normally affect me too much (just sore fingers) but it is a huge thing to be dibetic and pregnant…wow.  My sugar levels have to be checked at least 4 times a day and I have an appointment today and I have already been warned that I will leave with insulin…yup, needles and injections. Not fun.    But I have already realized I will do anyything for this little person who I haven’t met yet, who is only known to us as Ducky.  Absolutely anything.

Permalink 1 Comment

Shrimp Gnocchi with Cashews in Cream Sauce

March 2, 2011 at 4:08 am (diabetes) (, )

I like to experiment in the kitchen and tonight turned out a winner.   🙂

Last week my husband and I bought some prepared gnocchi from Target.  It was their Archer Farm brand and only cost about $4.  I figured it would be either really good or really bad.  It was definitely good!  While the gnocchi (which is based on the Italian word for “knee”) was coming to a boil I made a light sauce out of a pint of heavy whipping cream and about 4 tablespoons of Classico’s pesto and olive oil mix.  As it was simmering I mixed in about ¾ of a pound of small shrimp and a cup of cashews.  When the gnocchi was done I drained it and tossed it in the cream and shrimp mixture.  After placing the pasta mix in a bowl, I topped it with some shredded cheese.  It was a tasty dish with a light flavor and a fun texture.  I guess it was good since Husband finished his portion, ate the last ¼ of mine, and finished off what was left in the pot!

How is this dish for a diabetic?  Well, the gnocchi is high in carbs but it was the only high carbohydrate item in the dish.  The cream has less than 1 gram of carbs.  The cheese and shrimp are both fine for a diabetic to eat as they contain pretty much no carbs and sugars and add protein to the dish.  The cashews are high in fiber but also high in fat, not a great addition, but fair if eaten in moderation.  This was definitely a dish that fits my dietary restrictions and satisfies Wyatt’s appetite!

This brings up a new question, what sort of dietary restrictions do I face as a diabetic?  Everybody knows that diabetics shouldn’t eat sugar, but I never really thought about the role that carbohydrates play in this.  Carbohydrates are converted to sugar.  Sugar raises the blood glucose level and that is where my problems arise.  I’m learning! Breakfast is very important to helping me not have any spikes or lows.  Right now I am trying to manage my diabetes through diet and exercise, but I have a sneaky feeling that I’ll probably start using medication to manage this in a few months, probably by the beginning of the summer. 

Well, here you are.  A brief recipe and review with a little more information about me.  Enjoy!

Permalink Leave a Comment

Weekends with family, or living with diabetes

February 28, 2011 at 8:06 pm (diabetes, family) (, )

One of the things that I love about my husband is his family. He has a twin sister who is a sweetheart, lives in her own busy little universe but a sweetheart none the less.  His dad is one of the smartest people I know.  If I ever have a question about anything, he usually knows the answer and is always willing to help out.  His mom is the best hostess ever.  Within 5 minutes of entering their home, if you do not have a beverage in your hand there is something wrong.  They both go utterly out of their way to make sure that everybody is happy and taken care of. 

Because of how hospitable they are, I was really nervous about telling them I am diabetic.  It’s not that I thought they would say anything wrong, it’s that they are so overly-caring and I didn’t want them to make adjustments for this. I didn’t want to cause them to change plans/ideas/etc, and I definitely didn’t want them to think we could go places or do certain things just because of me.  I was really worried about this.    I wanted to be able to answer their questions, but I didn’t want it to be anything weird. 

Well, I told them a few weeks ago, and this past weekend was our first visit since.  His mom, per her usual self, kept plying us with soda, juice, snacks, with me just accepting water.  She and I eventually went on a walk and I tried to explain that soda and juice are things that I pretty much avoid now.  Also, I try to be careful about too much snacking.  All was well, so I thought. 

I’m finding that it’s hard for me to turn down stuff, not because I am hungry but because I do not want to hurt anybody’s feelings.  This is something I struggle with at work too. When we have meetings there is usually a big jar of candy that the vice-principal brings…and I sit there with my apple.  When we have staff meetings with lunch provided, it’s always pizza.  I get that pizza is cheap for feeding all of us, but I sit there with my sandwich, brought from home.  People are way too awesome about offering to grab me a slice, or a piece of candy, and I just smile and say no, trying to laugh it off.  It kinda sucks sometimes.  Our PTA will bring in bagels and goodies once a month, bagels, cream cheese, cake, cupcakes, doughnuts.  All sugary carbs that wreck havic with me. 

Lately my husband and I have been talking about when we want to start a family, so I discussed it with my nutritionist (who is also a diabetes specialist).  Apparently I will need to go on medication first so that my blood glucose level doesn’t hurt our baby.  And when I am pregnang? Nothing quite like poking your finger 6-8 times a DAY just to make sure all is well…in addition to weekly appointments with a diabetes specialist. 

Well, enough venting and complaining for now.  Regardless of the journey from here to family (no, we aren’t starting yet) and the challenges I encounter eating at places other than home, I am convinced that I was diagnosed when I was for a reason.  God has a plan in all of this, and it’s not up to me to second guess what God has in the works.  If my biggest complaint about my in-laws is that they are too nice, I probably need to keep my mouth shut.  And may I say that my husband is the best, most sweetest and caring guy ever? He goes so far above and beyond what he needs to do, and it is all out of love.  I’m so very blessed.

Permalink Leave a Comment