Drowning in papers…

May 18, 2011 at 10:47 pm (teaching)

Hey blog world.  I think that I am drowning in paper.  No matter where I look there are stacks of papers just waiting for my attention.  Eeeks!  A lot of it is grading that I need to do, and it is slowly getting done.  Knowing what I know about next year (know what I mean?) makes me so unmotivated to actually do anything.  Plus students are absolutely nuts right now.  Save me!

Okay, back to work.

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Round and round….

May 10, 2011 at 7:06 pm (family, life, teaching) (, , )

I found out a few weeks ago that I will not be teaching at my school next year.  I knew that there was a possibility of me dropping down to 4 or 5 classes instead of full-time 6, but I didn’t expect to be told to look elsewhere.  I gotta tell you that it sure hurts.  I’ve never been let go from a job before and it’s quite a blow to the pride.  For me the hardest part is knowing that there are some amazing students here that I won’t be working with. 

Because of some comments made by my boss I no longer feel comfortable at work.  Every time I see or hear something others say, I’m paranoid.  After a sneak-attack meeting where others were able to hear what was said, I’m full of doubt about who I am and doing what I thought God has called to do.  Add the sneak-attack to a very not nice email and a pretentious, act-like-he-didn’t-say-anything attitude and I am one very guarded girl. 

And it isn’t just me!  Another teacher had something similar happen to her.  Hubby’s job just gave him a raise and a promotion, so we are staying in the area, and we love our church (for the most part) so we want to stay in the area, maybe  move closer to Hubby’s job so his commute is shorter, but now starts the job search again.  UGH!

This move hasn’t been all bad.  We moved up here a year ago and since have become much closer to some friends of ours.  Financially we are better off here because the cost of living is cheaper than where we were. We decided more on when we want to start our family, and it’s sooner than we thought!   Also, we’ve added some awesome friends to our group (YAY!).  Now if I only knew what I was going to do for a job at the end of June…

Oh, and my foot? Still in a cast. 😦

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Lord Prepare Me.

April 11, 2011 at 6:39 pm (life, teaching)

Work is going a bit rough right now and it’s getting stressful.  Instead of taking it out on the students who make be a large part of it, I’m trying to mentally sing the chorus of my favorite worship song:

                    Lord prepare me, To be a Sanctuary, Pure and holy, Tried and true.

                   With thanksgiving, I’ll be a living Sanctuary for you.

I just let this run through my head.  It’s been running a lot lately!  I’m mentally singing it when students act up, tardies accumulate, directions are ignored, coworkers or administrators are vague, parents don’t respond, halls are loud, or even just when my foot hurts.  Lately it feels as though it’s the only thing keeping me sane.  This is my way of leaning on God right now.

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Sing a song of sixpence…

March 22, 2011 at 7:04 pm (life, teaching)

This Friday night is Arts, Etc.  It’s a night to celebrate the amazing talent of the 7-12th graders at the junior/senior high school that I teach at.  I’m really looking forward to the event, and since I am one of the coordinators, I thought things were going really well.    At least, I thought that until yesterday, when the other coordinator, who is 6 1/2 months pregnant, was put on at least a week’s worth of bedrest.  She will not be coming to Arts, Etc, will not be getting her choirs ready, and will not be there managing the volunteers or co-emceeing with me. 

 Now I know that her problem is infinitely more important!  Her health and the health of her baby girl is worth so so so much more than this, but I am a little freaked out!  There is a part of me that just wants to cancel everything and say forget it, but I don’t want to do that to the students.  They have worked really hard for this chance and I do not want to be the one who cancels, so what is a girl to do?  Well, I am pairing up with the vice-principal to reorganize a few things.  I am also depending a lot more on our band teacher.  She is going to be helping our choirs get ready and may be accompanying a few of the performances.  Absolutely huge mad props to her for helping!

What does this teach us?  Well, God is awesome at pulling us out of our comfort zones and putting us in the spotlight when we’d rather just stay in the background.  Also, He is there to remind us that we can do all things through Him because our strength is from Him, not us!

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Such a Monday!

March 7, 2011 at 7:55 pm (family, teaching) (, , )

Hello.  May I just say that my Monday isn’t even half over and I do not know if I am going to survive this week!  I have parents complaining about grades and about assignments.  I have students who absolutely refuse to listen in class and parents wonder why their child gets in trouble.  I even have students who behave in such a way that it borders on sexual harassment.  And the thing is, I like my students, I like my job, I like my school.  I have a student who isn’t even in my class who does her best to make sure things go roughly for me!  Each day I realize that I am not cut out to teach junior high.  I do not have the patience or the fortitude! God bless those who do!!! I envy the teachers who are called to teach junior high. 

I am sure many of you are familiar with March Madness. I don’t actually know what it is and think it has something to do with basketball.  Anyways, I heard a fellow teacher today use the term to describe how hard March is on teachers because we do not have any 3-day weekends or other no school days.  And they are right.  It’s only the 7th but I can already tell that March is going to be one stressful month!  In addition to different evening school activities for math and art, we also have missions stuff going on for my fast approaching trip to Ecuador with 8-9 students, I am starting an independent study class through FPU, I have various parent-teacher meetings scheduled, and it’s all stressful!

That being said, Husband did a great job planning a date on Friday.  He took me out for dinner and then drove me to a day spa where I had a one-hour professional massage…heavenly!  He is the best!!!  According to him, he hates that I have been so stressed and thinks that we need to make sure that I routinely have some way to relax,  and since he knows that I carry stress in my neck and back, massage it is! Now, I am not counting on something like this every few weeks, but perhaps I will get to know the people who run the massage place at the mall.  We could swing $40 every few weeks.   Have I mentioned that I love him!!!!!

Church is going well.  We’ve missed a few weeks here and there with being sick, but I love how supportive  everybody has been!  I just adore doing children’s church because it lets me love on the little ones.  They are so excited about everything and that’s what I need. I need the reminder that God is something to get excited about!  It’s so easy to fall into a rut and just stop being dedicated. 

Thoughts?

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“I’m pretty sure your leg hair isn’t helping you with your map project”

February 24, 2011 at 7:39 pm (teaching) (, , )

Teachers say the most random things, and when the things are placed into context, it almost makes sense.  Case in point: my ninth graders are creating maps based on the text of To Kill a Mockingbird.  During class today, they were working with their partners to compare quotes and start to sketch their maps.  One pair in the back was hard at work for a while but at one point I looked over to see the boy pulling up his pant leg and messing with his leg hair.  I looked at him and all I could say was “I’m pretty sure your leg hair isn’t helping you with your map project.”  After I said it, I started to laugh to myself because really? that came out of my mouth? Teachers say the most random things, but it kinda makes sense!

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